You want to protect your children, hold them tight, not let anything or anyone hurt them in anyway. HOWEVER, you cannot and you feel helpless as a parent.
I remember at my talk last Sunday I was asked what my reaction to death was and how I felt about it. They wanted to know if I could shrug off death and because of my beliefs concentrate on the fact that the person who has died is in ‘a better place’. No, to me death is still painful. I am not frightened of my own death but when a friend passes, I still have the pain that I do not have that physical touch with them anymore.
As one who comes from a family where many children have ‘passed over’, I feel the pain that the family & friends will be going through today. My heart still aches over our losses. There will always be the unanswered questions. The Why, the what would they look like now? The 18th, 21st birthdays that would never come, the marriage and of course the grandchildren.
Tears pour down my cheeks, it now too painful for me to continue. Yes, I do have my faith and I know that the Spirit of the child will always be within my heart , but a death of a child is so very painful.